Third Afternoon

The Final Group Session...

This afternoon we had a group counselling session to reflect on what the past three days have been like, how we feel about being with each other constantly and how we feel within ourselves now that we have become friends with some of the other patients. I am not friends with any of the other patients, especially not Alice! I think this group counselling was a waste of time and has made matters worse, we had a system, and I was always the leader, Alice has encouraged people to steer away from the system and rebel against me. Within the counselling session, Alice once again feels the need to speak and share her experience, I do not care what she had to say, and now that the group session is over I can speak my mind! I finally felt able to share with everyone my opinion on Alice, which lead to Alice standing up for herself, she tried to push me back down onto my chair, this then lead to us fighting, but as I have said before, I will not give up my crown that easily. Alice has now been kicked out of the hospital as she started the fight, and I will continue to have counselling where they try and control my anger. At the end of the day, I don’t mind staying here, now that Alice has gone, I am in charge again, everyone listens to me, stays out of my way, so now the system is back in place and we will try again to get on just fine. If anyone tries to push my buttons again then OFF WITH THEIR HEADS! 

Third Morning

Feeling Refreshed...

Today I have woken up feeling refreshed, I was able to release some anger, and today hopefully everyone will stay away from me! I have noticed thought that tweedle dum and tweedle dee are talking to Alice. The twins both used to respect me and leave me alone, instead of purposely trying to annoy me, however now they are on Alice’s side and probably discussing all the bad things I have ever done. They are probably trying to encourage Alice to become more superior then me, but I promise you, I will not give up without a fight! I am the queen, and Alice will never get her hands on my crown! 

Second Afternoon

My anger is building up...

This afternoon, because I have been surrounded by idiots for two days I am beginning to become very short tempered, now my sister, The White Queen, she is a perfectionist, she suffers from OCD, I think she just does it on purpose to irritate me, and today she is really winding me up! Sisters should stick together, and she knows my hatred for Alice, yet she tries to stick up for her an tells me to be nicer to her. Why am I going to be nice to someone who is trying to steal my spotlight and deliberately get on my bad side? I have been building this anger up for too long now, and my sister pushed me to the limit, I couldn't help myself, I had to shout at her, I wanted her out of my sight! The doctors have spoken to me about this, trying to explain why it was wrong for me to release my anger out on my sister, but its also their fault, if they hadn't tried to suppress my anger in the first place, this would never of happened! If Alice wasn't around then I would of never of felt the need to show everyone who it still in charge around here! Me arguing with my sister is not my fault, it is simply everyone else around me trying to purposely annoy me, I do not have anger issues, just everyone in this hospital seems to constantly get on my nerves! 

Second Morning

Breakfast with everyone...

Today we all had to have breakfast together, I was surrounded by everyone who is completely mad, and they were all talking about the most random things with Alice! If it was up to me Alice would be eating alone in her room, but as part of this new task to have our counselling as a group, we now have to eat together, talk with each other and spend all day as a group! Counselling is meant to help you, but being sat at in a circle full of people sharing stories about things that do not exist is making me loose my patience even more. Alice keeps talking about a cat that can disappear, and a blue caterpillar, does she even know where she is and that we are all human here? Everyone used to listen to what I had to say, but now they are all more interested in what Alice has to say, which is complete nonsense! I want Alice to leave this group, I want to scream and shout at her, but the doctors here are trying to control my anger. Now let me tell you, my anger is building up more and more, and the fact that I can not share my opinion on Alice or tell her to SHUT UP is not helping me at all, if anything it is making me more likely to blow, eventually I will fight her and get rid of her for good! 

First Afternoon

Interacting with everyone...

This afternoon we all met in the common room, the new girl, Alice, is talking to the drug addict, he's probably asking her if she has managed to smuggle any drugs in but apparently she is not into drugs but the reason she is in here is because she followed a white rabbit? Sounds like she is on drugs to me! Everyone is interested in what she’s doing here and what she has to say, I'm sure she is in here to try and ruin my life, why does everyone thinks she is so nice and kind? She’s bloody bonkers and I hate her! I can see everyone is trying to suck up to her, they all used to suck up to me but now all the attention is on her. Poor, sweet, innocent Alice, apparently forced to come to this hospital by her mother, how naive they all are, she's in here because she's as mad as the rest of them! I don’t deserve to be treated like these peasants! I am the queen and everyone should bow before me, including Alice! If she tries to become better or more important then I, she will soon regret it and want to be out of this hospital for good. I am warning you Alice, if I loose my temper, you’ll loose your head! Understand? 

First Morning

Meeting the new girl...

Today is a new day I tell myself, I will try and keep myself to myself if everyone keeps themselves in check and does not annoy me, however, the new positive day suddenly changes as I look out of the ward window to find a new girl making her way to the main entrance. Why? when everything finally starts going my way, someone new has to come in and interrupt our civilised system where everyone listens to me and does what I say. Everybody in this hospital understands that I loose my temper very quickly, so they all avoid me and do not ever get in my way, but I can already tell that this new girl is going to try and change the hierarchy. I call the shots around here, and the first order I give today is OFF WITH HER HEAD! 

Let me introduce myself...

Why am in a psychiatric ward?

Hi, I am the Red Queen, I have to stay with these idiots because I have anger management issues. The real problem here is that people don’t know when to stop annoying me, it's even worse now that we have to keep meeting during the day as a group. Everyone here is off of their heads, if we get rid of them all I will begin to feel much better, especially Alice, the new girl. Alice is young, and bubbly with an adventurous mind, everyone finds her so intriguing, I find her annoying, she really knows how to push my buttons. Alice does not understand why I don’t like her, that’s why they all assume I have anger issues, if she doesn’t leave soon I will chop of her head.